born to love

2009-09-15T17:00:00.002-06:00

havent posted in eons..wad can i say. i post whenever i have sum si. n today is ===> fellowship! umm i think it improved already la..but still with some ppl. its like. umm...i just feel left out la. like i was close 2 overcoming the "dislike" but then when they left me out..being all secretive n not telling me stuff..im just like, i dun wanna say anything anyore..n yeah. i mean...feels like

2009-04-11T16:51:00.002-06:00

I just found out something else about myself...I dont like to face realitymaybe its not true but thats wad I think for now...not even daring to write on other's wall...cuz then i wouldnt where to start. do I even have to right to talk to them. kinda. isolated without even knowing. is it cuz im dating? or is it cuz thats me? lazy to make connections? too "ma fan" too sad? scared to be disappointed

2009-01-17T10:14:00.003-07:00

Effie is 20 yrs old. As of now, she realizes..the MOST IMPORTANT and the ppl she loves the most in her life are..:) Mom n Dad:) My Fav Sister in the entire world : Eden:) My Best Friend : Cece:) My Lover : Davidhehe thank you Lord for them. without them, I would be lost. with super low self confidence n no ability to express myself. My parents always supporting me. My sister understands me like

2008-11-06T17:06:00.003-07:00

so yes. 1.5+ hours b4 my biochem midterm n im blogging. why? cuz i realli need to get this off my mind so that I can concentrate on my exam n tomro's exam which im pretty much screwed for. ai. life oh life. so hard. i feel like a failure once more. haha why do i always seem to type that? >< maybe i have too high expectations for myself when i actually is that sucky..so i was just wondering. is

2008-10-29T18:09:00.003-06:00

ever seen a stranger over n over again then just randomly decide that u dont like her/him? haha. its quite terrible but that happens. for some reason. maybe cuz u just observe these few stuff n those u gather then assume these ____ facts which just add up to-> i dont like her/him. haha sigh. but anyways. so yes. i get jealous. n yes, i dislike facebook. haha im glad i stop using it unless its to

2008-10-12T16:43:00.001-06:00

besides that rampage. i can say how stressed life is again. thats right. 3rd yr uni full of stress as per usual n yeah. it was a good birthday.

2008-10-12T16:39:00.002-06:00

Everione has the right to decide wad they believe in. how they interpret the truth. so yes. i will not be bothered and waste time trying to make others understand why I believe in that but just know its right before God n I know its fine. its ok that its hard to persuade such grey issues. i mean everione can decide for themselves. just remember not to judge them or to say theyre wrong. becua we

2008-06-06T12:45:00.002-06:00

yea. so i haven typed in here for about wad - 10 months? crazy long. but im just typing in here now cuz im pretty frustrated n upset abt something. not someone, but something. how THINGS happen. obviousli caused by decisions of SomeONESss. but wadver. so my sister n her (ex) bf broke up like wad. 2 months ago. n now her ex is going out with my good friend. i KNOW ppl get over ppl, ppl are allowed

2007-09-22T23:09:00.000-06:00

i feel so insulted lor. omgosh v_v ppl shdnt say stuff like that to other ppl.ur life is quite dull. but u know, ppl get sensitive sometimes. esp ppl who cant realli take criticism n honest direct ways. w/e. neways. im tired.n yeah. i dunno how to think now. im glad it insulted me. got my back from cloud#9! haha

2007-09-17T22:28:00.000-06:00

ahhhz. i dunno wad im doing. sai la. now im all concern abt stupid issues. haiya. its like im falling into it again. n i dunno if its good. i dun think so right. so danng confusing can. sigh. i dunno why im so troubled. its like. i dun even know wad to say. or maybe im just tired - i hope thats the reason. its just like. heavy hearted. something bothering. maybe worried abt ppl. n confused abt

2007-09-07T00:01:00.000-06:00

omgosh. so much n too much happening alreadi. i feel so sad n confused =(i dunno wad it is that causes me to feel like that. i think its cuz of the "new-ness" the environment suddenli feels so new. the ppl that i have been hanging out with 24/7 for the last few days are ppl that i dun usualli hang out with. the ppl that i usualli hang out with 24/7 are suudenli all misisng n. well. missing. so

2007-08-04T11:25:00.000-06:00

i officially pronounce : i do not know him anymorejust a statement of fact. being on facebook n looking thru pictures made mi realize n made mi think - who is this guy? do i know him? i guess not! haha not that it matters. i have other problems now , n he's actualli NOT part of it! haha i like that ;) but yeahjust amazed at how things n ppl can change so fast. like generally..someone u lose

2007-07-24T01:39:00.000-06:00

Happy birthday to that who has past away. sometimes, u give too much credit to him. haha..u think u're being considerate but the truth is - ure just making someone up. he nv "actually" do something in particular with a real meaning. he nv actully had a proper reason or excuse. he honestly just forgotten completely. haha n why are u even thinking of excuses for him? weirdo..haha..i like how i "

2007-07-23T16:24:00.000-06:00

眼淚成詩 - 孫燕姿我已經已經把我傷口化作玫瑰我的淚水已經變成雨水早已輪迴我已經已經把對白流成了永遠忘了天色究竟是黑是灰*分手傷了誰誰把它變美我的眼淚寫成了詩已無所謂讓你再回味字不醉人人自醉因為回憶總是美我已經已經把絕情變成了恭維因為不配你就忽然自卑說聲失陪我已經已經把沉默變成了懺悔無路可退只能無言以對

2007-07-12T17:36:00.000-06:00

:) i took a nap. n i never take naps. haha..but i took it cuz i was ill...i feel a little better..hopefulli i will be completeli 100% ok by tomoro..we're heading to Calgary aka cowtown tomoro for 3 days! realli excited...haha feels like i've been on sooo mani trips this summer..but its realli fun..i like trips! hk/spore trip of course, was the best..sigh cant believe it alreadi ended!! it was soo

2007-06-23T22:19:00.001-06:00

song from toyko juliet! so good..i thought it was stephanie sun @ first but i was HALF right. the singer isnt stephanie sun BUT she's from spore!

2007-06-23T22:16:00.000-06:00

放不下 - 龔詩嘉歌手：龔詩嘉作曲：方木維填詞：徐世珍編曲：Tim Ngoh你好嗎　你的夜是不是跟我的一樣漫長是不是　還把我給你的愛好好戴在手上要堅強　我常常對著鏡子裏的人大聲講雖然說　孤獨的想一個人好像一種懲罰MSN上太多的路人甲偶爾你也該上來說說話＊想著你的溫柔　想著你的模樣　我放不下　都說過了再見　我們各自飛翔　各自長大　抱緊愛會掙扎　放開愛會心慌　神也很忙到底要實現哪個願望　離開你　那麼傻　可以後悔嗎風很大　怕你又穿得太少會讓自己著涼我很棒　一個人換了燈泡房間變得很亮每一天　發生的事情我都好想要跟你講愛很怪　什麼都介意最後又什麼都原諒REPEAT＊Ooh　心裡最深的牽掛越想遺忘越不能忘

2007-05-12T01:22:00.000-06:00

wow...im leaving soon :) this is crazy but realli realli exciting..1) i cant wait to leave this place- haha..i just wanan leave n forget..n hopefulli when i return..i'll be able to take in all the 'shock' [which isnt that shocking animore..pretti much numb to it] haha..u know how trips usualli help ppl to "san sum". well, i hope it'll work for moi..then when i come back - i'll realli know wad is

2007-05-06T01:34:00.001-06:00

:)dun we all just love life n the wonderful surprises that it brings to us?oh the joy

2007-05-05T01:42:00.000-06:00

well, SCREW Ui dun give a shit abt u animore n im glad u nv gave a shit abt mi. go on with ur happi life :) this is going to end n good luck. i will try my best 2 keep a friendly image just so u can lead ur shitty life happily n yeah.GOODBYE :) i guess this is how its gonna end. i've tried all i can so. its time to give it ALL up n forget that we've even met. maybe one day, i might regain this

2007-04-28T23:50:00.000-06:00

haha..its pretti amusing how everithing i know= everithing everione knows. n everithing everione knows = wad i will know. why is this taking so long to get used to? haha. i guess im pretti dumb. its funni tho..sometimes i enjoy laughing @ how dumb i am. haha..im preti stupid actualli - i think everione knows that but i just keep insisiting im smart v_v [no worries guys, i just say that to make

2007-04-06T00:38:00.000-06:00

so yes..decided to do my monthly bloggin' :p haha..just de sudden urge 2 blog. yup. its finalli the long weekend. the long weekend b4 final exams o_O gwahhhh!! so scary..i duno, i feel like im veri unprepared this time..maybe cuz im still "playing" this weekend which makes mi feel tremendousli guilty n awful but i just keep telling meself that ->after this sunday, its pure studying till finals.

2007-03-13T22:33:00.000-06:00

wow..havent updated for so long...so last post was b4 retreat huh?! haha..that was like 3 weeks ago yea? soo...im crazily addicted to Fahrenheit..hehe Wu Chun is the hottest!!!! altho he's not the most "outstanding" in the grp =p so far..my research..found out..Jiro (funny guy frm Hana Kimi) and Aaron is the most popular..i still like my Wu chun tho..he's the quiet sweet guy behind the scene..

2007-02-19T00:34:00.000-07:00

wOw. its finalli READING WEEK. n tomro's retreat alreadi...kinda excited actualli. but realli nervous too. hehe well. today has been a GREAT day (: i had loads of fun. oh! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR!! on friday night, slept over @ cece's..it was fun..n on sat. went shopping!! hehe..was good was good..then went 2 buy roasted duck n fainted while waiting in line. oh man. was so scary. sigh...n definetly

2007-02-12T20:18:00.000-07:00

4 MORE DAYS EVERIONE (: KAMPAtei! hehe..i cant wait to shop! n to go sing k...wanna go sing SO BAD!!!! ahhhhh...heheok. i shdnt be on..i shell update next time. i have SO MuCH to do!!! ahhh stop procrestinating...i sheel list my stuff 2 do then i will start freaking out n go off the internet.Tonight- Chem post lab- English essay- Prink all my crap- Bio Lab ReportTuesday- Bio Lab Report- Bio

2007-02-09T19:22:00.000-07:00

wow. i got enlightened by my dad once more...hearing him was so comforting..becuz he was so understanding wow. he's a wissssseeee mannnnaniways. wad did i learn. hmm..more abt my situation. abt the 'grieving' period. how n why i take so long. this period may be long or short for ppl. n the time of it does not depend on ur situation..some ppl may be dated someone for 4yrs..n get over him/her in a

2007-01-26T22:49:00.000-07:00

i feel so sick. not just physicalli..but yeah..maybe just now @ Pastor Victor's house, there were too many ppl there n too lil air. plus no FRESH air o.o can die ah...n yeah. maybe plus the tiredness - i feel so gross. like im gona get a fever soon or something 0_0 weird thing is - i remember feeling exactly the same last friday. haha maybe its connected..but yeah. it started to bother me a lil

2007-01-23T00:05:00.000-07:00

i like my blog. i like posting wadever i want n not being afraid of bad reponses. or being sad..maybe im feeling sorry for myself. maybe cuz my ex is comforting a heartbroken gurl. maybe im jealous. maybe i feel that she's luckier than me. maybe i nv realli got the comfort i needed. or maybe im just blaming other ppl right now.i dun ever really know how to xpress my feelings. so i just say the

2007-01-19T23:18:00.000-07:00

its been exactly one month.since i talked to himsince that happenedone month ago today..i was crying my eyes outi was confused. felt betrayeddidnt understand athingmy world came tumbling downone month today...i feel much betteri saw him again. at that same exact timeit was weird n yes.my world..is slowly getting back to shape.one month after today...i hope to be frens with him againto be

2007-01-17T21:58:00.000-07:00

Quotes (very meaningful. n definetely something i can relate to..)-A sad thing about life is when you meet someone that means a lot to you, only to find out in the end, that it wasn’t meant to be and you just have to let go-Everyone always told me i deserve better than you but what no one realizes is that your all i've ever wanted...your everything thats ever mattered to me and i dont care what

2007-01-10T23:36:00.000-07:00

yeah. not so much confusion animore. its anger now.more mad n sad than anything. i think i shall retreat and hide myself. get a new life within the old and avoid.avoid. avoid. avoid.being mad makes things easier. n makes me sadder. well. at least im suffering for his happiness. that's always good.

2007-01-07T22:21:00.001-07:00

anger + forgiveness = havent completely understood the situation so person does not know what side to take.A mixture of opposite emotions causes the individual to be lost and confused about one self. being stuck in a unsettled and unsatisfied situation.what to do? how to feel? what to feel? do u just go on? just. find a situation that u want urself to believe it even when u dunno if its right.

2006-12-23T17:21:00.000-07:00

i guess i am finally blogging about this..i dun want any sympathy or pity or anything. i just wanna let it out..its sad. i thought it could have worked out. now im not even sure if he was telling the truth. maybe im just suspecting him lying so that i can feel better. perhaps i wanna give him a chance, make him more humanly..maybe i just dun wanna believe the truth. or is it the truth?If he was

2006-12-21T18:33:00.000-07:00

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2006-10-17T23:33:00.000-06:00

sigh...let's hope she wun ditch mi. but i guess if she does. let's hope i wun get too upset. n that i will be able to take it. n that i will be able to find other frens. n that i will be able to survive Uni like that. sigh. why do i think so far sometimes...weirdo. i need more energy man..i needa be nicer to people. sigh. i feel so hopeless sometimes..God, pls change mi...@ least gimmi more

2006-10-09T00:37:00.000-06:00

oh man..im had the craziest week ever..CRAZI i tell u- CRAZI. it started off stressful/tearful..ended off peaceful [thank God] yes...here's a [incomplete but full] summary of the week:Monday- Thursday: Went 2 school n came home everiday - devastated n overwhelmed n stressed. basicalli i just wanted someone to strangle mi..it was horrible.Friday: in the morning i wasnt feeling too great becoz of

2006-10-02T21:00:00.000-06:00

i miss the callsi miss the worry-free daysi miss working 24/7i miss the summeri miss him.even when i see him everidayi miss those times...

2006-08-30T10:40:00.001-06:00

WOW..i havent updated for a long time huh..but yeah. this week has been pretti awesome..i quit baskin robins n im quitting buck or 2 in one week =l kinda sad actualli..m yeah. uni is in a week - EXACTLY one week frm today! so scary...ahhhhhhhh!! i hope i can meet lotza nice ppl there ah..n i can handle all the classes..haiya! so scary!!!! but i guess it'll be fun rite..thank God i have cece in my

2006-08-30T10:40:00.000-06:00

2006-08-08T13:44:00.000-06:00

Happy Entry:=) its amazing how this whole thing worked out...since 2yrs ago till now. man..so happi it actualli happened..i guess there was a real meaning behind it n i did learn alot frm it but. this ending is the most unexpected 0_0; just pray that God will help n guide us la ^-^ so sad he's leaving tho...hopefulli it wun have too much of a influence on me =lFrustrated Entry:i hope she's

2006-07-27T23:51:00.000-06:00

i guess i expect alot frm [some] ppl. when i feel like shit. i expect them to make mi feel better. but they dont. maybe its just mi being demanding n selfish, but they seemed kinda. insensitive n self centered? like helloooo im actualli TELLING u im feeling like shit. n u dun do anithing to make mi feel better?i guess i'll just sleep it away. thanks ppl. u just made my day SO much better

2006-07-17T18:48:00.000-06:00

"No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the others, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money" -Luke 16:13Its amazing how God speaks to you sometimes. And even more shocking how easy it is to ignore all the multiple signs he gives u. after multiple experiences, i have learnt something.God wants me to slow down, listen

2006-07-09T00:50:00.000-06:00

wah. ORH HO GU-AI AH 0_0ho tired ah. sigh..neways.. today worked @ buck or two frm 10-6 then dream tea from 7-12veri. fun la. but veri tired...haiyo..dream tea is pretti fun to work @...ppl are quite nice actualli =) pretti impressed. i went to visit kristi @ shoppers' b4 dream tea..hehe n she put some stuff on for mi. =D yeah~ n yeah...dream tea was busiiii..busii like a bee. hehe ppl are funi.

2006-06-18T23:25:00.000-06:00

loong time no update!! but its ok..i promise to update more after dips are over V_v yeah..i have MAJOR exams this coming week! SO SCARED!!! i've been studying like a cow n i certainly hope that everithing got osmosized into my brain..O_o but yeah! pls pray that i'll do awesome =D im gonna be determine to do well..my chem exam is on tues so im gonna be studying ALL DAY tomroo..tomroo! OILERS ARE

2006-06-05T23:06:00.000-06:00

hehe i still like this templete better =p neways. i'll update soon. exams arnd are just arnd the corner x_x cant hang arnd the com too much ahz O_O;

2006-04-29T00:36:00.000-06:00

i dun feel special animore =l

2006-04-29T00:23:00.000-06:00

ppl..juz kinda stopped listening..they go on n on n on..abt themselves. n even when faced with someone with troubles. they juz say "yea, that sucks" n keep going on..haha. wad a world.i guess their world has onli them in it. n maybe they needed a bunch of audience. i hope i didnt stop using my ears..there's definetly a whole lot of ppl out there wanting to be heard badly..n to be cared for.its

2006-04-14T23:18:00.001-06:00

WAH COW! im sooo tired n hot. as in, veri veri hot...juz now in Rocky's house...so mani ppl, n no windows open, lack of O2 + lotz of heat = wanna faint. but i thought it was pretti good :) well, i had to lead worship today..not bad la! i didnt have time to prepare much but thanks to Wellson la..he could help mi with the chinese songs v_v if wanna blame, then blame that im juz not fob enuff o.o

2006-04-14T23:18:00.000-06:00

2006-04-05T11:44:00.000-06:00

[Shining.Friends]*Little faith, brightens our rainy dayLife is difficult you can go awayDon't hide yourselvies in a cornerYou have my place to staySorrow is gonna say “goodbye”Opens up u see the happy sunshineKeep going on with your dreamChasing tomorrow sunriseThe spirit can never dieSun will shine my friendWon't let you cry my dearSeeing you , shed a tearMake my world disappearYou never be

2006-03-11T18:36:00.000-07:00

juz editted the profile part of the blog ^-^ hehe i didnt needa work today so i cld sleep in..so niceee...enjoyed it! so yeah...tomro's dress rehersal..last spring show ever..wow. this is crazi haha dunno if i shd be happi or sad v_v but well, hopefuli it'll turn out good! gotta go find my jeans later~ neways! this week was pretti awesome *grinz* i did realli good in skool n i got my grad

2006-02-28T19:54:00.000-07:00

THANKS EDEN :] i loooove this layout! hehe. so as u can ALL see...my blog had a makeover finalli! since december and xmas is over - its abt time i change it to something less wintery..altho maybe i shd have left it..due to the INSANE blizzard out there today v_v; crazi i tell u..crazi! but i like it ^-^ so neways. im totalli not suppose to be on the computer but i realli dun feel like starting on

2006-01-30T20:19:00.000-07:00

Yo man!! i guess its feb soon...WOW. insane yeah? haha n i havent even updated for a month!!! woly crap...had been insaneli busi la. with hols, shopping, playing and most of all - STUDYING. yes. behold u all ppl who think im not smart. i WILL be smart this sems. be a geek for a lil bit. haha today was 1st day of sems2. PRETTI insane n quite boring but i guess 1st day is usualli like that la. wad

2005-12-28T22:44:00.000-07:00

oh man! i havent posted anithing for sooo long huh? been pretti busi la. with skool. CHRISTMAS n BOXING DAY...blah blah blah :) but yeah! its been pretti awesome lately. boxing day was a toalli insane day..people cld nv get more pissing-er! bestbuy had the longest lineup ever! n im pretti sure ppl went there like at 4am when it opened at 6! haha. wow. things ppl wld do to save money. but i guess

2005-11-24T22:14:00.000-07:00

i guess some things. u gotta learn not to put TOO much substance X into it. sometimes, too much..is a bad thing. Take cooking for example. when you cook, u need salt/soya sauce to add favour (for those chinese ppl O.O) too much. is no good. it is good, when u add LITTLE 1st..then u can test it: if its not enuff, add some more. if not, its prefect :) same with mani other things...u start by

2005-11-13T17:54:00.000-07:00

fcuk. sorri guys. i dun usualli swear. esp that word. but someone got mi REALLI REALLI ticked off i cant stand her lyk seriousli ITS FREAKING DUMB n childish. if u want someone to tell u stuff n gain their fricking trust so they'll fricking tell u. aND HA-HA-HA its seriouslli NOT funni all ur dumb talks abt "hahhaa stop being so serious, im onli joking" n then turn arnd n be all sensitive n

2005-10-13T22:17:00.000-06:00

man. i like my new blog so muchie..kinda have a sense of christmas? how fast time flies yea..v_v; so neways. its already thursday...tomoro's friday. im actualli realli realli excited for worship..hehe cuz i havent been playing for almost a yr! my so-called- "break" kinda became way too long? haha so i hope it'll go well cuz im excited :) so yea..sat gotta work..i took like 2 weeks off a weekend

2005-10-08T18:40:00.000-06:00

i think its been the best day i've ever since a VERY long time :) man...i realli wanna thank God for the wonderful frens i've known in my last 17 yrs...its been juz so - great :) i turn 17 today n i juz feel so wonderfully blessed. i never realli realiesed that till today...cherish the ones u love? haha i guess if i made that motto, i shd've kep to it! heethanks you to those...who made my 17

2005-10-02T23:28:00.000-06:00

hey :) it was a AWESOME weekend. n next week, will be even betterrealli excited...missed the times we all had together la..good times..fun times.but noe wad. i dun realli like going online animore :) good news for eden yea? haha cuz it actualli makes mi more n more sad everitime i go on. sorri to peeps who im practicalli ignoring. dun mean too its juz that yea sigh it will be less on for mi tho..

2005-09-25T23:32:00.000-06:00

=(i dunno im listening to 'a yr to remember' by twins/boyz. AGAIN..yes, its so hard.i STILL havent got my fone yet. im soo tired of getting my hopes up, getting disappointed n then pissed..n its a cycle. like the kreb cycle. speaking of which bio exam tomoro n i havet studied yet im screwed. man this suckstoday went for dinner thingy the food was awesome so it was pretti good...but im realli

2005-09-13T14:50:00.000-06:00

heyoooo im in skool rite now ah >< so decided to blog! haha. juz finished writing stopid essay v_v; sigh hate essays soo muchie!! OH GUESS WAD!!!!naruto 151 is coming out tomoro!!!! WOOHO!! like finalli!!! =D been waiting for AGES so darn slow can?! cant wait!!!! naruto is the BEST anime ever..haha like i always say abt the lastest anime i watch =p hahaha. but yea! im excited...i finished

2005-09-01T23:11:00.000-06:00

K. the WORLD does NOT evolve arnd u. even if it did like ONCE, not animore man. so even if u misunderstand i dun reali careu can care. but i dunnot animore. my world = my world

2005-08-29T22:57:00.000-06:00

judging ppl..tt's not veri nice. harshwho are we to judge? n esp if u duno them that well...dont start criticizing themu dun understand wad that person is like n wad the person has ever gone thru..the pain, the suffering,the joy n all..everione's life is so different n unique. its so hard to understand even ONE so unless u noe everithing, pls dun start anaylizing them like u noe EVERITHING.. i

2005-08-25T23:44:00.000-06:00

STRESS WEEEK.can die. or died liao. or DEADED. sigh...its thurs..i cant wait for the weekend to come...man. life sucks

2005-08-22T22:20:00.000-06:00

wah. today was 1st day of skool..it feels SO WEIRD..man, this sem is GOONA RULE. haha neways. lemmi sum up moi summer :D hehe. wasnt tHAT BAD. i mean..there was pretti bad moments here n dere. but overall. how BAD can SUMMER GET?! haha even with summer skool..it was cool being in skool with that dude ;) haha..sleeping n folding cranes in class was allsome la~ n 2nd month was pretti..erm.

2005-08-12T00:24:00.000-06:00

hayo! todays...thursday...wah. wad a dayDADDY CAME BACK!!!! ^-^hehe.. we got good food man! krispy kreme.*drools* soo goood WAH! i think we can get more..in Vancouver...XD tehe. so yeah! tomoro is FRIDAY!! hehe i get moi camera, so EXCITED! gotta be a canon wor..so quite limited~ then yeah. i gotta work. k i gotta gobiiii

2005-08-08T22:56:00.000-06:00

this time. its different. this time.is the timetime to let go- time to forget- time to return to reality- to give up- to say its realli over- to stop dreaming- to leave- to say goodbye to move on

2005-08-05T22:35:00.000-06:00

come and go...wahhh. but i guess its better than not coming at all~SO!! its FRYDAY!!! WAHHHHHHHHH. MAN, im SO excited for the weekend! XD n guess wad?!!! *drum rooooooolllllllz*SUMMER IS FINALLI HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!ok..i can breathe now XD man! after waiting an entire yr for this...ITS FINALLI HOILDASY!!!!! 2 weeks..MAN this is worse than spring break?! hahhaha. owell..better than nothing!! CLD HAVE

2005-08-02T21:21:00.000-06:00

wahhhhh! havent updated for soo long wor o.O hehe..im supposed to be studying rite now..n im going to..while using de com! ^-^; hehe..i hope i can multitask lor..so neways! juz came home frm Aunt Margaret's house..food is sooo yumi!! crab n fish n ribs..*drools* i had too much good food de last few days o.O i think the diet is hard to carry out..haha..well, i'll keep trying! so yeah. it feels

2005-07-26T22:52:00.000-06:00

hope..i think i have some now. wahh..this happened a few days ago. but im so happi (: i cant believe *beep* came. like finalli. waiting was worth? well it was sooo normal la..man, like sigh of relieve...so happi...hai. n its good that 'its' gone for this week...coz then even if 'it' doesnt come again..hehe i wun feel too sad v_v; but yeah. it was so normal n happi. missed it so much. its like

2005-07-15T19:02:00.000-06:00

hihi!! praise God its friday!! wooppeee!!! XD hehe. so yeah! can u believe it?!!! 1/2 of summer skool is over!! o.o dat's insane man. INSANE!! haha. today was so relaxing :) since its sat tomoro=no skool! niceee la. didnt go out today. amazingli o.o stayed at home all day n watched tv n anime ^-^; hehe. so addictive man. naruto is ALLSOME. wahhh its such a nice anime!! neways. social 30 isnt THAT

2005-06-27T18:19:00.000-06:00

i feel like lee-san. does hardwork beat geniuses...tt's a question that applies to me rite now. i worked hard n nothing came out of it.this isnt fair.i think im gonna give up. its a unrealistic goal for me.basicalli. i suck

2005-06-17T22:34:00.000-06:00

*******DRUM ROLLLL!!!!!*******announcement of the CENTURY : GOODBYE MATH...........question of the day: good or bad?!!!!personal response: honestly- i will miss math. yes yes i noe..how nerdy. bUT math has been my BEST subject since grade1....ever since i got 100 on my math final in grade2 *wide smile* hehehehehe. but yeah. SO HAPPI its over. SO HAPPY. like..since..erm...feb- i havent felt such a

2005-06-14T14:35:00.000-06:00

Yoooo! hehe im at skool library rite now :p n this keyboard sucks arsss!!!! but yeh. suppose to b english classs n they're watching some gay movie so i got permission to come up to study~ i did study k...for the first hr...haha yeh then decided 2 use com hehe..so! im going to cut n dye my hair today! hehehhehe. so exciting!!! going after skool. yeah. i so didnt make an appointment (oppz) but yeah

2005-06-07T19:43:00.000-06:00

yeahhh..im on The Swing. MOOD SWING. sorry guys.im juz soooo unpredictable these days..suddenli im SO pissed n suddenli. im in sucha good mood. yeah. hope this will be over soon. so haha since im in a good mood rite now. decided to make use of this to blog! i mean, why wld i want to blog if im feeeling super crappy?! haha. so yeah. im ADDICTED to Gakuen Alice v(^-^) so bad man. but dunch worri,

2005-05-31T23:06:00.000-06:00

wah. im updating again. haha i did sooo bad on my final today. oh WELL v_v; wadever la. we had ceccetti class today..like straight 2hrs.nonstop! i worked hard..most prolli coz there was a camera rite there.so kinda stressed to dance good? haha but yeah. ACTUALLI enjoyed that class! n coz terra was so busi with the recording, she didnt have time to yell ;) haha. good la. then went home with genoa.

2005-05-30T23:46:00.000-06:00

im am STRESSED. soo screwed. gonna seriosli YANK OUT MY HAIR.-SCREAMS-english final essay exam tomoro. WAS TOLD TODAY. WTFREAK. sooo dang pissed. i wanna sue english teacher so bad. get her fired. she's such a bad teacher. onli noe how to smoke EVERI BREAK. n smell so sick during class. STRIKE! so yeh. im soo stressed. i wun talk abt it too much now. but basicalli:-ballet exam-english exam-math

2005-05-26T23:41:00.000-06:00

EDEN. u rock my socks!!! liking de new templete dude! ^-^;

2005-05-25T21:05:00.000-06:00

heyyy!! haha guess wad im listening to rite now..u'll NV GUESS...haha coz im SO COOL. im listening to Cecetti Ballet Elementary Music =p KAE> EXAM'S IN 3 WEEKS!!! im soo dead..so i wanna get that music stuck in my head 24/7..=p haha YES YES IM COOL. neways.i shell report on moi WONDERFUL N BLESSED LONG WEEKEND ^-^ hehehehe. yea. it was GREAT! ALL-SOME LA! since..fryday nite..till monday nite. ALL

2005-05-14T23:42:00.000-06:00

"After all, its better to have love n lost..then to have nv loved at all.."

2005-05-04T16:32:00.000-06:00

yoooo!!! im in skool rite now haha...shdlnt be posting this budden wadever la..so yeah. im sooo tired!!! comtempory skool is tomoro 0.o hai..n i hafta studi tonite for that stopid social test tomroo !!! arghhh man..im doing sooo dang bad in math rite now..so dead!! n math is sUPPOSE to be my best subject but V_v; HAI. wad to dooo...argh. yeah..im soo hungry :( i have efb till 6.30 later n then

2005-04-26T22:56:00.000-06:00

hihihiihii! havent blogged since 4ever..haha no matter wad..i still prefer this to space. dunno why. blogger RULES!! :D i guess im juz more used to it n yeah. much more personal. i feel like. well yeah. hehe tomoro have social test!! wish mi luck. social is scari man. scari...better do well if not i die!!! we're having efb minishow on fryday! so i get to miss some english!! SCORE! :D hehe so

2005-04-23T23:00:00.000-06:00

hihihihihihi! its sat nite!!! hmm...im tired. (took mi awhile to figure that out) yup. did math juz now but i was kinda doing com stuff too =p hehe i got msn space! i think that's wad its called. can blog there too so its pretti sweet! n u can customize lotza stuff but im gonna continue blogging here too for one. this one is more private ^-^ haha. so yeah. today had dance show at Tabernacle

2005-04-18T22:55:00.000-06:00

yea..juz finished with it. i dunno how to feel..n i duno wad im feeling rite now. coz im so lost. am i mad? sad? happi? disappointed? relieved? assured? wad? i go thru so much emotions for de last few weeks..i cant tell de difference animore...i dun rememeber anithing ani more. i feel like my head is s P a c e. blank. colourless..n im juz totalli lost. oh God, please help me. please save mi frm

2005-04-14T21:40:00.000-06:00

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiomgoodness i havent updated since...SO LONG! ahhhhhh. man im soooo tired rite now. SO heCTIC.. 0.o going KOOKO! aniways..life's ok now i guess. last week was super crappi coz skool went bad n so did dance.. V_v; SIGH. then today was student choreography show :) was pretti good! haha did a modern dance with sonomi^-^ Sakura yup cool name ahhh..hehe. then

2005-04-03T23:26:00.000-06:00

haha spring break's over. im not that upset actualli. quite amazing :) im quite happi :) thank you God. he's been working some miricles in my life n :) thanks! *i feel quite content*

2005-03-29T11:03:00.000-07:00

yoyoyoyoyo!!! its tuesday morning of 2nd week of de wonderful spring break!!! XD enjoying everi moment of it man. so yeah. today can play!! like ACTUALLI play. how sweet hey? but u noe wad's moreeeee amazing?! i havent been to WEM ONCE during spring break!!!! except last last sat!!!! man..tt's prolli why it doesnt feel like a hol!! hahaha coz i ALWAYS go there during hols! V_v; now i noe. haha.

2005-03-24T22:56:00.000-07:00

hey! cece called me frm fobbyland juz now!! XD made moi tiring day v_V; . after one pretti long day of work *poooo* haha yeah 8 hrs man! was ok la. i guess :) haha i got moi paycheck! tt made moi day too! 192.12! muahhaha. gonna put into PC coz it shell go into my account for 'back to asia!' ;) hee! yup. Good friday tomoro! nothing special i guess juz going to church in the morning so yeah. i

2005-03-22T22:55:00.000-07:00

*owie! my head hurts! painnnnnn - dunooo why..but it like randomli comes n goes n hurts so much...ahhh..=x newayssss. i got a hair cut yestiday! yeah! finalli!! wheee. so hapii! n i realli like it XD hehe. oh btw. its spring break! wohoo! 2 full weeks of NO SKOOL! celebration man! yup! so far so good! tho it was snowing the WHOLE of today! omgosh. like nonstop. n sooo windy too! had sucha hard

2005-03-13T16:54:00.000-07:00

hey sori but this is not gonna be a happi post :( yeah..i love this song man. juz changed it..dunno everitime i hear it..i feel like crying. in fact i kinda did once.but i'll change the templete soon. VERI soon so say byebye to fruit basket. so yeah. im so confused abt it. is it realli over? yes it did start. wad happened? i dunno. wad should i do? im vERI confused. wad are u thinking? i cant

2005-03-03T23:01:00.000-07:00

HI! hahaha omgosh! today's gotta be the funniest day i had in a loong time :) hahhahaha! had SUCHA great TIME! hahahaha laughed so much man! hahaha. jokes.. jokes...oh man. so yeah..this morning met cece at the mall to go shopping n lunching! yumm. CREPES! ^_^ hehe then yeah. went southgate to meet with kristi n den. haha bluenotes!!! bought clothes! *bites lips* crap.im sooo not suppose to!!

2005-02-28T23:37:00.000-07:00

heyyy 2 more days till 4 day weekend!! woohoo XD yes! so yeah today was good..work was great..not bad! its getting so much better..i mean esp de cashing out part! hehe improvement!! dance was great tooo..while at least for cecetti ballet class! hehe i tried hard ah then yeah! hehe terra was proud of my turnout! esp in arebasque! xD hehe. but yeah student chereo was a COMPLETE HUGE disater! so bad

2005-02-27T00:20:00.000-07:00

"i will live, even without u"yea. why did it happened juz like i expected? cant SOMETHING happen unexpectedly for once? pls? can? -sighz-

2005-02-25T23:46:00.000-07:00

hihi!! IT FRIDAY NITE!!!!! man. how happi can i get?!!! XD hehe VERI! sooo tomoro working 9.30-5.30! yeS! long hrs! more money in! haha...well will be tiring but havent worked on a sat since 2 weeks ago man! loooong tym!!! yup. juz now i went Mission Fest! was pretti cool actualli too bad like sOOO lil peeps came! like 5?! man..so disappointed ah. with it. but w/e. dun realli care...it was good

2005-02-20T23:34:00.000-07:00

hey! went snowboarding today!!! XD XD hehe so happi! damm proud of moiself man! hehe! thanks to de most wonderful n patiend snowboarding instructor...CLARA!!! *whistles!!* haha. yeah man. it was reali xciting today ahhhhh....so scari k...but iimmm sooo happi i didnt crash into a sign OR board OR ppl XD hehe well i fell like a billion gaziliion times but tt's ok..i'll juz DIE tomoro morning when

2005-02-19T00:25:00.000-07:00

hihihihi!! LONG WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOO HOOOOO!!!!! XD soooo harpi! like ahhhhhhh finalli!!! XD XD XD XD! YEAH! hehe today was okkii..not TOO Bad la still ok lor. tomoro going shopping!! wheeee so exciting! havent talked to michele for quite some time! will be fun! for sure for sure! man tho im poor. i can still go (window) shopping! haha! its still good. yea man..no fellowship tomoro so i

2005-02-16T22:31:00.000-07:00

XD moi loveli voice is back!!! ~lalallalalalalala~ hehe like moi beuatifuelll singing? haha i dun! ^-^ neways! its wed nite..im online again! for like 10 mins so decided to be super fast blogging! XD

2005-02-14T22:16:00.000-07:00

Omygosh. i cant believe it! like wth....WHY So SWAY?!!! like hellooooo wad's this?! some drama?!!! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! WHY is it like that! u better come back *sobx* u BETTer :( :(

2005-02-12T14:22:00.000-07:00

(whispering)hi ppl...i currently voice my voice like entireli ^-^ haha..so i cant talk like at all..onli whisper my way arnd..man..its hard to be heard!! ahh but tt's ok. Thank God i dun needa work today..if not..it'll be so bad..coz then i wun be able to talk to the costomers at all..haha. dun think i've ever lost ma beautiful voice b4! wow. some ppl muz be so happi *STARE* haha oh well. maybe

2005-02-08T23:02:00.000-07:00

hihi! man..im sick! n i hope im better liao! i dun even noe if im going skool tomoro...ahhh. so yea stayed home the whole entire day. slept like a pig. im sooo sick of sleeping liao. 20 hrs in total can die ah. sleep until my neck pain ! can die ahhhh. i hope i'll have energy for tomoro..gENKI GENKI! yup. tomoro's chinese new year!!! actualli, in less than an hr! HAPPI CHEENA NEW YEAR MINA!!!!!!

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